BE MY LISTENER-
11:46 PM
hmm. finally end of da week.
wkends here i come again!
hahas. yeah! ending wrk soon.
either mon or tues will end i tink??
nt tt sure.
these few days working wid dear were totally awesome!
gt to mit him every minute..
ate lunch wid him everyday.
go wrk tgt..
go out tgt aft wrk..
go hm tgt...
awww..i'm loving it! =)
ya but dere is still stress in workin..
luckily gonna end soon!
i had been looking forward to tis wkends since starting of last week heh?
today was slack.. very slackk..
mayb we were too fast..
finished our wrk early.
walked to marina square to hv lunch at LJS.
hmm.mayb mon KFC heh?
wonder mon or tues last dae??
no longer dan tt pls..
i'm tired..
and wan enjoy da rest of my hols. =D
`patriciaa~
10:08 PM
today was da happiest day of my workin life so far..
cos..was workin wid dear..
it was da first tym workin wid dear..
basically, everything was cool today..
yea. we are doing da same tasks..
jus slightly different..
today half of da day helpin him wid photocopying as i had long finished my wrk and was veri free..
he was so lost and blur blur de. hahaz..
but then we do quite fast in the end..
thx to my help heh. =P
today then realised how advanced the photocopying machine had become.
nt print page by page..
instead is print stack by stack.
stil can help u print double sided.
when all u hv to do is to press da button.
ya i admit i sua ku..
but tts wat i learnt today..
only wish nw is to end wrk tgt wid dear..
nt me ending wrk only..
`patriciaa~
10:23 PM
received orders frm my 'boss' today..
or rather towards the end of the day..
that he's gonna to hire dear..
so happy at first..
my dream had come true aft so long..
no more loneliness..
no more worrying abt how bored he wld be at hm..
that's really the happiest news i've ever heard since last week.
but then..
everything changed aft i go met him..
i was wondering why did i even go mit him...
if i din't, all wld be fine..
i found out tt his contract ended a week later than mine..
he din't kip his promise..
he promised he wld kip himself free for tt 3wks b4 sch starts..
but nw..he mite be workin then..
*sighs*
even dress code..
he dun bliv wat i told him to wear..
he rather believed da agency..
for heaven's sake..
i'm working in dere now...
i knw da company better dan da agency do..
so now i rrly wondered why i intro him tt job..
why go to so much trouble and in e end getting trouble myself..
lesson learnt: STOP being such a kaypoh.
that's my plans nw..
if he is still workin aft i end...
i wld go out wid frens instead..
esp a few of my kors..
i missed dem so badd.
yea..shd'nt waste so much time on him..
wat i gt is sadness...
i had been a STUPID DUM DUM all tis while..
`patriciaa~
10:59 PM
tmr monday..
needa go back to tt office
(or rather storeroom-cum-office) again..
i'm beginning to enjoy wkends..
and it's sunday again..
i hate to go back dere tmr..
my frens envy me for getting admin job..
but i ain't happy at all workin alone in tt small room..
instead, i missed da flyers job even though of tt rascal guyy.
at least dere were frens wid me..
but i'm all alone here..
pls..hire someone to wrk wid me!!!
anybody wld do!!!
i dun wanna be alone!!
or let da 2wks pass quickly...
`patriciaa~
11:51 PM
sorry for being so ridiculous today..
sorry for controlling you.
but i guess i have to do so.
hope u wont mind.
i did give u a choice.
jus wats wrong wid me recently??
everything jus dun go smoothly..
esp my temper..it's getting worse..
so all those ard me..esp dear..
i wld lyk to say sorry and thank you for da patience..
today sept love outing..
went bugis buy crown accessories..
den went lau pau sat eat..
aft tt go spore river tk pics..
tk quite long tym.. abit tiring..
but today was indeed fun..
i do miss those gals..
and i dun tink i can post da pics here..
so will sen to u guys via msn or email.
`patriciaa~
10:59 PM
results out today.
nt veri gd but acceptable..
slight improvements compared to last sem.
no D-s tis sem.
all B+ and C..
bt i'm oridy quite satisfied..
now..sudden sadness..
of course nt abt results..
jus sth else..
my heart sankk..
i jus feel lyk giving up..
nth seems meaningful..anymore..
i've lost the faith..in you..
ignorance is bliss..
i wish i din't knw..
and i wish i din't knw you...
`patriciaa~
11:38 PM
tired..
wonder when den da company will hire more ppl..
i'm lyk all alone!!!!
KNS KNS!!!
such a miser...
such big company...
so little pay...
and refused hire ppl..
not even one more ppl..
still gimme so many excuses..
KNS..
suddenly gt da urge to quit..
bt signed oridy...
2wks...seems so slow..
unless gt hire ppl pei me..
den i wont mind...
haha..wonder how to pass da days...
i dun wanna wrk alone la kns!
`patriciaa~
10:34 PM
today first dae of wrk at da law firm..
lucky only half dae..
if nt, i will be so lost!!!
hope will hire more ppl to wrk wid me..
at least hv someone to tok to..
and pls if wan hire ppl, pls hire dear..lol..
even though it's office wrk..
wid air con n stuffs...
bt its stil quite tiring sitting dere da whole dae..
my back is aching..
and da whole rm is full of papers and files..
nw den i knw whr hv all da trees gone!
tey hv been using papers lyk mad!!
hope tmr lunch tym can mit wid my cousins..
dunno wat can be eaten dere..
ya and da tym table for nxt sem is out!
tink i gt in my first two choices of electives-marketing and video production.
and da tym table is quite messy..
and all lessons start and end late..
no more ending early..
and i dun lyk fridays anymore..
dear passed all modules!!
congrats!!
mine will be out on fri morning..
ohh mann.. two more dayss...
wish me luck in results and wrk!
`patriciaa~
10:48 PM
today was coolz.
been wid dear for lyk 13hrs??
since early morning til nite.
yea i'm loving it =)
hope da last 3wks of hols will b lidat too.
hope his dad wont complain him kip goin out again! =x
and finally gt my 3wks flyers pay!
finally! mayb he cld sense tt i'm cursing him..
so faster gif us..
better dun delay da nxt pay..
if nt i will cont cursing him.. kns...
today received call frm da law firm..
so tmr first dae of wrk at a law firm..
ohh mannn..
so new to office job..
bt tey nw only nid one ppl..
hope dear gt da call soon! hope tey nid one more ppl.
den dear can pei me wrk le!
tts my only wish nw! for him to gt in da law firm and wrk wid me too!
pls pls... grant me tis wishh.
`patriciaa~
10:42 PM
somebody...pls jus kill me...
if not...lemme kill somebody..
ya today is my last dae of flyers job.
if stil no news frm tt law firm..
den tts da end of my workin term tis hols..
KNS so suay.
ya and tt stupid ass still dare threaten us of our pay..
i wont let him off so easily..
jus wait and see.
`patriciaa~
10:15 PM
today is totally rockable wid dear.
went to causeway point.
for window shopping?
ya we owaes do so.
walkin aimlessly at some shopping malls. lolx.
aft tt took bus to sembawang.
and tis was da part which i enjoyed.
we went to our past usual hangouts-carpark.
lotsa memories come by.
we began to talk abt sec sch stuffs and frens.
we began to talk abt those times when we normally hangout at sembawang carparks.
talked abt those stuffs. that i had long forgotten.
so wat i wld say is today was indeed 'refreshing' for my memory.
yes i enjoyed my day alot.
thx to xiao xuan. =P
ya and i will try nt to call u that again. heex.
`patriciaa~
11:14 PM
hmm well.......
basically, today was da happiest day so far tis week.
even though i bet wkends will be even better! =)
today back to letter box again le.
pheww. jus love da 'letter box days'.
yeahhhh. and gonna end wrk soon!
happy happy!
my slippers snapped today.
yea spoilt. bt it's still worth it. i guess.
had lotsa fun workin wid guo se tian xiang today and ytd.
she was soooo lameeee.
ya but i lyk. =P lolx.
no more such entertainments.
gonna wait til sch starts. lol.
and today finally met dear.
aft so manyy days.
goshh.
had lotsa fun shopping ard jurong point though.
and i will try my very best to cut dwn on my usage of "KNS" in my conversation.
if nt will kena *pinch cheek*. lols.
`patriciaa~
10:50 PM
after da fade goodbye on monday..
i din't met u for so many days...
tuesday..wednesday..thursday...
KNS KNS!
wat had u been busy with??!!
i miss you so.
`patriciaa~
10:22 PM
i tried to discover..
a little something to make me sweeter.
oh baby refrain frm breaking my heart...
i'm so in love with you.
and if i should falter,
would u open ur arms out to me?
cos i dint knw you.
cos i dint knw me.
bt i tot i knw everything.
i never felt...
the feeling i'm feeling nw.
i tear my heart open.
i sew myself up.
my weakness is that i care too much.
sitting here all alone..
holding on to my phone.
waiting patiently for his call.
after a long long wait,
i found out that it was a pointless wait.
my phone did nt rang...
and my broken heart sank.
why can't you care??
and where is the love that you promised??
`patriciaa~
10:16 PM
yea. here it goes:
stupid fatty dumb asshole!
stupid fatty dumb asshole!
KNS!!!!
ain't worth to be called washing powder..nor a pig.
at least pig or washing powder can be of some use!
use dirty tricks on us.
be careful of retribution!
tink u veri big izit?
jus a small fry and wanna control us.
fat hope!
MAY HE ROT IN HELL! @!&*^$@!#
yea i do sounds bad bt u will naturally feel tis way when u wrk wid tis stupidd guyyy.
but aft all the complainings.....
AHHHHH....I FEEL MUCH BETTER NOW! =)
ain't worth to be called washing powder..nor a pig.
at least pig or washing powder can be of some use!
use dirty tricks on us.
be careful of retribution!
tink u veri big izit?
jus a small fry and wanna control us.
fat hope!
MAY HE ROT IN HELL! @!&*^$@!#
yea i do sounds bad bt u will naturally feel tis way when u wrk wid tis stupidd guyyy.
but aft all the complainings.....
AHHHHH....I FEEL MUCH BETTER NOW! =)
`patriciaa~
11:39 PM
i've tried to gt you off my mind..
i've tried to play my part.
but everytime i close my eyes..
you're still inside my heart.
why can't i laugh?
why must i cry?
everytime we say goodbye...
why does it rain...
here in my heart?
everyday that we are apart..
why can't it be
jus you and me.
what will it take to make you see..
these are the words to my heartbreak lullaby.
i try to look the other way.
and keep my heart on hold.
but everytime i'm close to you..
i lose my self control.
i've tried to play my part.
but everytime i close my eyes..
you're still inside my heart.
why can't i laugh?
why must i cry?
everytime we say goodbye...
why does it rain...
here in my heart?
everyday that we are apart..
why can't it be
jus you and me.
what will it take to make you see..
these are the words to my heartbreak lullaby.
i try to look the other way.
and keep my heart on hold.
but everytime i'm close to you..
i lose my self control.
`patriciaa~
10:44 PM
all of a sudden...
i hv da urge to quit tis stupid job.
esp when tt freaky guy replied sharon in such an 'attitude-d' way.
such a miser when he ain't da boss.
whr he act as if he was one.
bt forever-calmed sharon was rite in some ways too.
which made me changed my mind again.
nw i hope dear wld gt a job soon.
at lest let him hv sth to do for tt 3wks.
so tt he wont b bored.
if nt i dunno wat he's gonna do while i'm workin.
so pray hard tt da sales admin will gt him a counter soon heh.
find tt i had been slackin as a tutor.
i ain't rrly doin my job anymore.
today's lesson was so slackk.
mainly bcos of sch hols???
nah nah. tts nt wat i shd do.
i'm paid and i shd do wat i nid to do.
yea NO MORE slacking for those kids!
today let dem off cos tey were lyk so tired..
aft some outing?? i guessed.
`patriciaa~
10:11 PM
oops. new record.
dint blogg for two days.
i admit i'm getting lazier. *grins*
bt i wont let myself go any lazier.
tts why i'm here again!
aft getting a blog..
i noticed tt ppl ard me do care.
yea. thx to those who cared.
me and my bf are veri fine nw. =)
mayb tey do cared in da past too.
jus tt i dint voice out. lolx.
so here are da updates for fri and sat.
thurs i 4gt le... hee.
these two days were totally awesome wid dear!!!!~
fri no wrk. cos too far. at expo.
so gt zhen's frens to replace.
den went suntec IT shw and yishun northpoint wid dear.
suntec was crowded on tt dae.
nth interests us so we went off quite soon.
den jus wandered our way to northpoint.
dunno why we landed dere.
bt we were owaes travelling ard spore.
til we often gt no place to go.
all go til sian liao.
*sighs*
anyone can intro nice places for us to wander???! lolx.
den for today.
dear suggested goin ice skate.
he sounded so enthu.
bt..i jus dun hv da mood.
so rejected it. *sorry*
den we wandered ard and decided go air con places to shop since weather was lyk so damn hot.
yea and orchard was da nxt destination.
went to forum shopping centre.
all kids stuffs.
aft these two consecutive days of outing wid dear,
i noticed i'm getting more and more addicted to him.
lolx. i tink i cnt live widout you anymore.
ya it do sounds mushy bt i gotta say it. =p
and as promised.
he wil oso wrk while i'm workin.
bt hv to quit once i stopped my short term wrk.
and gotta pei me for da rest of da hols.
hehex. hope u kip ur promise. =)
`patriciaa~
11:02 PM
ytd...i was so angry and disappointed in him.
bt aft a day..
i realised i dun blame him at all already.
instead, i miss himm.
today dint mit him.
doubt tmr can too.
i will miss you badlyy.
nw hols le.
may u gt a job soon.
even though i do hope u will hv more tym wid me instead of workin.
bt i knw i wont b able to stop u.
as u wish.. as long as you are happy.
happy international women's day to all out dere.
what can you do when the only person who can make you stop crying..
is the one who made you cry??
`patriciaa~
11:02 PM
*sighs*
i'm so disappointed in you.
once again, u hurt me so bad.
if wan go straight hm aft sch, cnt u jus tel mi?
rushed all da way jus to mit u.
wanna mit u early..
so we can hv more tym tgt..
mit u le.. u tel mi u wanna go hm rest.
wth..wat had i done to deserve all these??!
u ain't da only one tts sick.
im sick too. bt i stil tk out tym to mit u!
and wat i gt in return was you questioning me in a sarcastic way.
"do you own me?"
"do u miss me if we dun mit for one dae?"
"do u care abt me?"
yes, you were rite.
i dun own u.
as u wish.
do wateva u lyk.
i wont care..anymore.
jus dun hurt me again...please.
why it owaes seems as if it was my fault?
LIFE SUCKS!
`patriciaa~
11:38 PM
my only wish now is..
hope dear and me gt well soon.
it was so terrible being sickk.
getting worse..
flu, cough, fever!!
oh noo.
yea and dear gt da same illness as me too. hehex.
sick oso sick tgt wor! =)
actually ytd go see doc was given MC de.
bt i jus insist on workin today.
was havin high fever today.
can feel my body burning!
sick till go ah ma's hse rest.
den it gt slightly better.
hope to recover soon!
i still wanna wrk de!
speedy recovery to dear too! =D
`patriciaa~
10:37 PM
happy 2nd anniversary dearr!!!!!! =)
today finally go see doc liao.
so under medication nw.
sians. i feel so sickk all over.
today supposed to b happy dayy.
cos it's our 2nd year!
love dear always!!
bt dear sick again.
sae cnt go out.
my heart rrly sankk.
i had been lookin forward to todayy.
wore da couple shirt tts bought for today.
wore it ALONE.
filling wid hopes tt he wld be able to mit me aft tuition.
in e end, it dint cum true.
no chance gif him his shirt.
wonder when den can gif him.
when is da nxt special occasion?
valentine's over. anniversary's over.
lucki huilian dint managed to gt tt levis couple shirt frm m'sia.
if nt will feel more guilty.
as all da efforts will go dwn da drain.
cos today is just another dayy.
it dont seems lyk an anniversary..
dear dunno da shirt exists cos it was meant to b a surprise.
bt..it jus ain't my dayy, alrite.
went for tuition today.
da p3 kid's results was quite bad.
wonder da mom gt blame me for tis kinda results not.
*sighs*
and gave her assignment do.
everything wrong.
dunno how to teach liaox.
i'm such a failure.
i will be waiting for da upcoming special occasion.
`patriciaa~
11:48 PM
oh noo..
still coughing.
tot wld recover by itself.
bt tink its getting frm bad to worse.
sians.
cnt tok fluently. cnt singg.
tink daddy was kept awake by my coughing last nite.
he said to me today..
"promise daddy u go see doc tmr mornin k?
it's so terrible to see u lyk tis."
lolx. ya. so i oughta see a doc tmr, provided tt i rmb. =P
dear was oso coughing. bt his was slightly better.
we were lyk takin turns to cough today. so funni.
and to all those tt were sick too: gt well soon! =)
`patriciaa~
11:14 PM
today rrly sux!
time passed damn slow today.
anw today only me and bel workin.
walked ard da hall to gif flyers.
so tired. dint gt to slack muchh.
we joked and 'lamed' ard to pass tym heh.
and 8hours was finally over.
finally FRIDAY!! wkends here again!
hehex. gonna rest and relax. hahas.
i'm sooooo tired...........
hope to hv fun wid dear during da wkends!
hehex =)
`patriciaa~
11:40 PM
today den i realised.
how bad i had been last time.
i rejected those ppl who gimme flyers.
tink is retribution.
i was kena rejected several times today.
bt overall today quite slack.
hehex.
anw tmr no wrk!
cos only nid two ppl tmr.
and da tym clash wid my tuition tym.
so nt gonna wrk for tmr!!
heex. can hv a gd rest! go shoppingg!! =)
`patriciaa~