BE MY LISTENER-
10:06 PM
celebrated ah ma's bday today..
at changi beach..
glad that the weather was fine.
hope ah ma had fun today.
she was so quiet today.
b4 she left, she asked me when will i visit her again?
she said she cnt come my hse to find me.
cos she no longer can walk much.
her legs are getting weaker and weaker.
suddenly, i felt so guilty.
i had no time to visit her.
but yet she needs me so much.
esp now..sch starts.
*sighs*
she seems so lonely.
and dere is nth i can do.
i'm such a failure.....
so many kids/babies were dere too.
all so cute..
esp my little boyfriend, ethan.
took so many pics of him.
but lazy to upload here.
end of weekends..
and i still haven touch any of my hwk.
dead. and where shd i find my story??
oh man..somebody help me!
`patriciaa~
7:27 PM
oh my.
end of saturday.
half of the weekends was gone jus lidat.
and i dint even touch anyting of my hwk.
when my thampui shd hv done part of it liao?!
i'm so dead.
global issues hwk shd b stil ok.
jus nid some research and paraphrasing.
that's easy..
we had been doing all tis while.
but presentation skills hwk..
eh..still haven find stories.
so can forgt abt finding songs and music.
yupps and i seriously hate 11th may.
so many tings goin on.
may that day be over..very soon......
`patriciaa~
11:13 PM
interpretation lessons was so bo liao.
the most bo liao lessons i had attended in my life.
i admit the passing msg cum translation game was fun.
but that was only for a while.
aft tt go on to short term memory training.
oh my. so ridiculous.
he wasted time testing our memory.
bo liao rite. bwg. -.-"
but alfred's lessons was fun..
had a good laugh again.
even though tt boy boy teacher spoil the earlier part of my dae.
alfred was funny and lame..
hahas..
and even let us go earlier. like wat i had expected.
wonder will dere be tuition in may and june?
cos aft exams and hols here.
if no tuition.. can relax...but lesser income!
i duno how.
tink let the parents decide bah!
`patriciaa~
10:41 PM
fundamentals of interpretation..
the teacher was like..so dull and boring??!
and thin oso. nt man at all!
alfred win him sia. he more man. =p
and oso jokes more than tis guy.
whom seems so serious.
tink he is da only dull teacher tis sem bah.
and he gt baby face. look so boy boy. hahs.
interpretation lessons sounds boring.
and will hv oral exams!
oh my! back to sec sch days.
but sounds quite coolz heh.
been a long time since i had oral exam. hehe.
den presentation skills....
had a gd laugh again.
but hwk is here again.
and tis is nt ordinary hwk.
it involves radio production!
all of us need to be dj on tt dae for 10mins each.
11th may is da day to present..
it's oso the dae i need go check up my eyes.
i dun like tt day..
wonder how i do tis hwk.
seems so hard. =x
`patriciaa~
11:33 PM
marketing was fun.
not da subj.
sounds quite hard.
but da teacher.
he was so humourous. and abit childish too i tink?
still wan knock windows to scare those noisy ppl walking outside.
lol. is he seriously a lecturer??
however, i was enjoying his jokes throughout da lessons.
and he let us off almost 2hrs earlier.
all da teachers lyk so slack heh?
or izit first week den so relax wid us?
hope the following weeks will still be as slack thou.
during da 4hrs brk, 4 in love went westmall.
eat BK den shop dere.
spent so long shopping at vcds. haha.
and den back to contemporary language lesson.
he said no hwk or reports..
only OPEN BOOKED exams and tests.
oh my. so wonderful.
and tis lesson ended an hour earlier too.
so slackk.
first week of sch is indeed an enjoyment..so far.
`patriciaa~
10:29 PM
2nd dae of sch aft 2mths hols...
wat can u expect?
i jus cnt gt to cheer up.
i still cnt gt used to sch life aft da long brk.
presentation skills...
sounds so ma fan.
diff types of presentations gotta do.
many research to do too.
global issues..
sounds so chim.
lyk geog plus social studies?!
both subjs tt i had hard time memorising in sec sch days.
but da teacher was quite ok.. considerate.
he looked so macho.
looks lyk a PE teacher instead i tink.
but he is teaching CHS! oh my.
tis kind teacher changed wed lessons to tues..
so wed end early!!
hehex. can go out!!! finally!
hope projects wont obstruct me heh.
anyways like more projs and hwk coming up..
aft tis week gotta do hwk again.
most hwk by 3rd week due.
i'm lyk so dead again.
`patriciaa~
10:13 PM
today..
1st dae of yr two life in NP.
hmm. rather peaceful today??
except that video production lesson is quite hard heh?
da cameras, the buttons, the functions...
i jus cant absorbed all inside my brain.
too deep. too hard for me.
and the projects sound so stressful.
the lessons made me feel so dead already.
esp when wkends u mite hv to go back too!
oh man.
the new schedule is lyk tis and i had only wkends to go out.
now..no more relaxation.
did i make the right choice in choosing tis elective?
i dunno. only future knows. hahs.
`patriciaa~
9:40 PM
oh my.
sch starting tmr.
9weeks had passed.
so fast.
*sighs*
i dun wish sch to start.
`patriciaa~
11:27 PM
finally.
i gt those songs changed to itunes.
yupps. thanks to dear..
whom spent the whole dae helpin me wid tis.=)
contented with wat i hv in dere nw.
sch starting soon.
hmm.....
`patriciaa~
11:18 PM
finally....
got my ipod nano today.
yupps. follow my heart and got da white one. =)
but...
i still figuring how to install itunes cd and stuffs.
quite hard lehs.
compared to mp3..
much easier and convenient.
nw..it's too confusing for me.
i need help!
`patriciaa~
10:58 PM
what should i do??
*sighs*
ignorance is bliss.
and i'm gettin more n more stressed.
sch starting.
exams are coming for the kids.
i wonder did they improved.
i think i'm such a failure.
pimples popping up more and more again!
argh.
`patriciaa~
10:24 PM
went polyclinic today to check my eyes.
had a hard time waiting.
for abt 3hrs to gt everything done?
yupps. that's it if u wan cheap cheap consultation.
had my eye pressure measured and was normal.
so my eyes ok?
i dunno da answer.
cos da doc lyk oso dunno.
referred me to mt alvernia hospital for further check up.
early in the morning on 11th may.
hope wont hv other activities on that day.
and hope my eyes were really fine so that i cld wear contacts soon!
today then i realised sth abt ipod nano.
i had always loved it for its slim figure.
until today then i noticed it's different frm others..
it gt colours too!
and can store pics.
seriously i dunno abt all these aft today.
i purely lyk its figure only. =P
aft today, i loved nano more. =)
sch starting. i muz gt it soon.
`patriciaa~
11:46 PM
went sharon's hse tk songs todae.
hmm. she gt so many songs..and i took less than half of it. -.-
lol. yupps.
tink my eyes having big problems.
it's so red when i wore lens.
oh no.
tink goin polyclinic check tmr.
den mayb a few days later go national eye care centre bah.
hope i will be fine.
cos i still wanna carry on wearing contacts. =)
`patriciaa~
11:50 PM
hmm..
today sept love gathering today at bel hse.
reach quite earli wid joy.
end up waiting for da rest.
i was quite slack when tey were preparing food.
was watching narnia wid xn, sharon and joy( who was half aslp). =p
everyone was here except jiashan.
hmm. only eight of us.
eating steamboat was nt rrly tt gd idea.
we were all perspiring.
yupps. even though of da heavy rain b4 tt.
da weather was still damn hot.
i left bel hse earliest.
slightly b4 8pm?
yupps. had a hard time waitin bus.
cos trees fell at clementi road i tink.
which caused terrible jam.
and so bus was delayed.
and i missed the 9pm ch 8 shw!
shag! i dun wanna miss tt shw.
anyways thx gals for todae. =)
see ya guys when sch starts nxt week.
`patriciaa~
10:37 PM
ahhhhh! so stress.
SA1 are coming for da kids.
oh no.
tey looked relax..
while im da one feeling stressed.
im afraid to face da parents when da results are out.
da results are jus too sucky!
i dunno how to teach anymore. *sighs*
went to visit ah ma aft tuition todae.
hmm. she had been sick for da past few days.
im quite worried abt her.
she looked so depressed todae.
dint smile at all when we crack jokes.
i jus hope she will gt well soon.
i love her. =)
`patriciaa~
8:51 PM
good friday wasn't that good for me. =(
he tot of ending this relationship.
cuz he cld'nt tolerate my nonsense, my wilfulness.
i admit i was wrong.
but that's my character.
i can't change it.
we seemed fine.
but we ain't.
so many tings had been happening.
wonder how long can i still hold on to?
how long more can we last?
everytime we quarrel, i wished we ain't tgt.
but why when he initiated the break up,
i always cld nt let go..
the hurt will always be dere...
deep down in my heart.
`patriciaa~
11:39 PM
had been eating fastfood everydae these few weeks.
ahhh. i feel so fat fat fat!
many many tings coming up.
many many tings to gt busy with.
change in time table again.
change in sept love steamboat again.
and change in ppl who pei me go buy nano.
lastly, i dun wish sch to start! =x
`patriciaa~
11:10 PM
dear's time table is finally out.
aft so long.
but our schedule tis sem are like two world's apart.
holy shyt! guess we hv lesser tym tgt once sch starts.
only wkends. and sundae tuition. so only sat?!
oh man. tis is jus so sucky.
so many tings in my mind.
argh.esp nano and songs!
when is sharon free to gt songs frm her?
when is franco and his fren free to pei me go buy?!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anw todae went jurong swimming wid dear.
had quite some fun dere.
spent ard 5hrs dere.
yea. so damn tired nw.
and his sch is starting real soon.
and soon will be my turn.
*sighs*
everything sux! =x
`patriciaa~
10:35 PM
ahhh! finally i'm no longer related to tt company.
wrk is officially over now!! =)
todae oso no wrk.
only went dwn do some paperworks den go off liao.
but i dint tel my parents i dint wrk todae.
tey tot todae was my last dae.
end so earli of course hang out wid dear.
and so of course cnt tel dem. =p
went dwn tampines to hand in da time sheet.
den eat n loiter at tampines mall.
aft which went bedok.
hmm. den went parkway parade walk walk.
went amk and tpy to change bus. (sorta pass by)
hahs. went so many places today.
and rushed back for tuition.
hmm. indeed an enriching dae.
wonder how is sept love bbq plans goin on?
wonder when dear's time table will be out?
wonder when can i gt my nano?
hmm. so many doubts in my mind. =x
`patriciaa~
10:17 PM
oh man..
look at the date!
i haven been blogging for 3days?!
yupps. cos nth much to update.
so dint bother. hehe.
these few days all spent wid dear.
cos nxt mon he starts sch le!
shag!
so these few days wid him are precious to me.
tmr workin again! last dae le bah!
cos sch starting real soon.
and dear's contract till tmr..
so even if he wan us wrk longer we can oso reject le..hehs.
tonite no tuition.
changed to tmr nite.
for tis two weeks..till sch starts tt week den back to normal.
ya so sept love bbq gotta change dae again.
cos of me. =\
sorry guys.bt if rrly cnt change jus go ahead widout me!
i also nid change thurs tuition.
cos change of time table!
sucks!
but gonna wait till dear's time table out den can plan.
hmm. his sch quite slow heh? less dan a week sch start, tym table stil nt out. =\
hmm..so many tings haven buy.
esp nano!! impt impt!!
franco had been so busy heh?
arghh! anyone else can accompany me go buy?!
lolx..i cnt wait anymore!!
ahhh! so many tings! *confused*
`patriciaa~
10:53 PM
dunno wats happening to me.
been changing my blogskins quite frequently heh?
yupps. gt tired of the old skin again..
or mayb cos i'm too free..
so changed n changed. hahs.
i will try to love tis new skin! =)
today me and dear agreed to go cut hair..
nt cut tgt but on da same day..
finally gt my hair cut!
it's nt tt thick now..
but length still same bah? cnt bear to cut it short!
dear's new hairstyle was cute and funny..
till i cld'nt stop laughing when i met him today.
LOL. mayb i jus nt used to tt hairstyle yet.
i promised i wont laugh so loudly again.
and i finally gt wat bel meant by sayin change in time table.
nw latest end at 6pm.
oh no. and falls on thurs.
gonna change tuition dae again.
*sighs*
some plannings ought to be done.
`patriciaa~
11:07 PM
happy 25th monthniversary to dear!!!
but today jus seems lyk another normal dae spent wid dear..
nth special...
went swimming at tpy today...
and had great tanning under the hot sun too..
after which went interchange find sharon tey all..
today is their last dae..
so gd...
tmr no wrk again!!!
argh! kns!
changed to nxt tues last dae..
drag and drag heh...
nvm..i will try to go into hols mood...
even working...
yeahh.. hope wont drag any further..
cos dear starting sch veri soon..
*sighs*
the days we spent tgt tis hols is getting shorter...
somehow i regretted working heh?
yea. i dunno wat i'm tinking..
jus full of regrets in everything.
`patriciaa~
11:30 PM
yupps. no work today..
spent the whole dae wid dear again..
we went a few places..
firstly.. to my sch to have lunch..
den went Lot 1 shopping..
it's been quite some time since we last been dere..
quite 'fresh' dere..
aft tt took a long bus to tampines.
and it was raining cats and dogs outside.
till the roads were flooding..
after which go back tpy to take bus hm.
and went to look at da MMI booth..
hmm..scary memories coming back..
tmr no wrk again..
tey called to sae da photocopyin lady was stil on MC..
so tmr come le oso nid wait..
ask us come on thurs instead..wth..
wat if tmr she on leave again??!
we're being dragged by her!!!
we still wanna enjoy hols de..
da short short one week left..
but if we leave nw, it's veri irresponsible of us..
so pls..faster photostat those documents and let us file and leave.
hahs.
`patriciaa~
10:38 PM
today worked only for half day...
after lunch den nth to do liaox..
so asked us to go backk earli. -.-
reality is jus so cruel..
we're jus lyk objects..
needed den ask u stay..
dun nid you den ask u leave..
mayb tts jus wat the world is about..
tmr no wrk!!
gonna go gai gai again!!
yeahh!!
and wed shd be the last day le bah..i hope..
dun wanna wrk anymore..
i'm tired and wan to rest badly..
yupps.. and tink dear confirm starting sch a week earlier dan me..
sad. =(
i only gt to hang out wid him for less than 2weeks tis hols..
all bcos of wrk..
yea right..i'm beginning to bcome a workaholic..
i'm gonna cherish this short period of less than 2weeks wid him..
`patriciaa~
10:19 PM
happy april's fool!!
luckily nt being fooled today...
hmm..went shopping at bugis again..
when i jus went dere last sat for sept love gathering.
found that dere are so many tings i wanna buy..
ipod nano..clothes..skirts..accessories..bags..pencil case etc etc..
yupps. tts basically why i wrk tis hols..
to satisfy my desires..
hehex..
aft wrk end..i will chiong shopping le!!!
and oso out wid dear everyday..
yea. i'm looking forward to tis kinda life. =)
`patriciaa~