BE MY LISTENER-
10:55 PM
these few nights were indeed torturing.
i can't sleep at night.
if can, also dint sleep well.
made the choice of applying for the switching to teaching track thing.
applied with xinni.
after much considerations.
as it had always been what i wanted.
it's only the teaching part that is what i want.
but i DON'T WANT to be separated from my friends.
i need them to talk to me when i'm bored.
i need them to comfort me when i'm down.
i need them to study with me when i'm studying.
i need them to laugh with me.
i need them to joke with me.
i need them.. for MANY MANY other things too.
i DON'T WANT to go china without them.
why can't i go china with them but i still can take teaching track?
if don't let me stay with them, why don't let me be in teaching track right from the start?
and why why why send that mail at this time?
i'm so lost.
i want my friends.
i also want to be a teacher.
what should i do?
this thing had really messed up my life.
making me moodless and easily angry.
i'm really sorry to my boy.
whom i had been venting my anger on.
i dunno what to do.
i'm so so lost.
what should i do?
did i make the right choice?
`patriciaa~